The Car!!!

So we go to the zoo for HallowZooween and have a blast, Joshua is great and he made out like a bandit on candy.. so the night comes to and end and we all heard out to the cars to get undressed and buckled in and head home right.. well that would be the idea plan... so we get to the car, open the door as the kid in the truck next to us says "Don't get on the swing, it will END you" uhhh ok, so I proceed to remove Joshua's Elephant costume and smart mom me.. I put his Spiderman Jammies under his costume earlier so we just have to buckle him up and head home.. ok not so easy.. I get the costume off, get him in the back seat to get in his chair.. then shut the front passenger side door like any normal person would do right... well it doesn't shut so I think crap the seat belt must be in it, I open it and try again.. same thing.. then I finally take a deep look at it and see this 2 inch gaping piece of my car door so Steve and I with our brilliant minds think.. oh since we are in the grass we must be on UNEVEN ground.. lets back up and then try again.. Uhhh NADA, same stinking thing... so it finally dawns on me.. OUR CAR HAS BEEN BROKEN INTO!!!!! Steve gets out to inspect and agrees.. some idiot apparently smart idiot if that is possible pried the top portion of our front passenger side door about 2 inches away from the car frame without breaking the window or even scratching the car.. one little spec of paint missing could have even been caused by a rock on the road... now since we never leave stuff in the car nothing was taken and nothing even looked moved or touched.. I mean come one.. a 2000 Pontiac Grand Am, what could we have had to offer.. so now we have a funky car door that we have to take to get fixed tomorrow.. fun times.
I am attaching some nice photo's of the GOODS.. enjoy!!!

Been MIA, sorry!

Sorry I have been MIA lately, I just haven't really been inspired to write.. sure there are plenty of things going on in my life but I didn't think to sit down and write about them.. but maybe that is why.. I was busy doing those things.. hmmm what a concept.. I can tell you that I have been eating Oreo cookies like they are going out of style and I got a super duper discount on them before the style left.. it did take me 2 weeks to eat a whole pack but OMG.. a whole package of Oreos all by myself?? I only gave Joshua 2 of them..and that was to bribe him into taking photos in his Halloween costume.. the things we do to get pics of our kids..
So anyway.. some friends and I went to the Staind concert last Friday.. man was that ever good.. Aaron Lewis is such a hottie.. and I just know he was singing directly to me.. it was like he and I were the only ones in the whole room... uh then I got smacked in the head by some dumbass kid's shoe.. ok Staind is ok hard but just like Phillip (guy that was in the friend pack) said.. IT WAS A BALLAD.. why in the hello would you be crowd surfing to a ballad??? So my other friends Annette and Karla (great gals, I love them to death) they are a lot shorter than I and for some odd reason they kept being on the side that the stupid Mosh Pit was on.. they were pushing and shoving the stupid heads back into the pit to get them off of all of us.. LOL they are funny gals.. two of the smallest girls out there and they were pushing those stinky sweaty guys back into their Neanderthal PIT to slam into each other and rub their sweaty bodies on each other.. hmmm wonder if they think of that way.. think they would continue to do it if they did??? So anyway.. Red (or otherwise known as R-E-DEAD) was awesome for a second time, Papa Roach.. totally cool.. loved the lead singer.. he was fun to watch.. then Seether.. lead singer had pink or read hair not sure but man does he have a voice!!!! Then of course the one and only STAIND came out... and talk about voices.. Aaron Lewis has the voice of a god!! He didn't play one of my all time favorites that's ok.. I forgive you Aaron! This time.. OK so that was Friday.. onto Saturday.. took Joshua to the pumpkin patch.. he had a lot of fun climbing all over the pumpkins and feeding the goats.. then after about an hour or so we left to return home.. then of course I am freaking tired from the night before so I decide to take a nap.. then Karla calls to say she is on her way.. I am like WHAT.. what time is it.. OMG so it was like time to be ready to go to the Jewelry party and I was still like so ASLEEP!!!! So I get up and do the super duper "Get yo ass ready in a quick way" dance and of course have to make Karla and Jadyn wait patiently while I finish up since I am not so super duper fast... so off we go to the party.. get there, eat great food and chit chat, buy some jewels and head over to Annette's house for some sprucing up.. and then off to the "Rocky Horror Picture Show" live performance... it was great, they changed it up a little this year and of course made tons of jokes about Sen./VP wanna be Sarah Palin... I laughed so hard I almost peed in my pants.. then after the show we were supposed to go out clubbing with the gang but, instead went to BELL TACO and home to eat a 4th meal at 11ish.. Now comes Sunday, yard work (cleaning leaves up) and house work and laundry.. I did manage to take Joshua to the park to try and get some pictures of him in his Halloween Costume.. (see Oreo's reference above).. Now onto Monday.. work up at the butt crack of dawn like normal work days.. but instead of going to work I went to the imaging center for an u/s.. I get there and all is well.. in the room she (tech) squirts the gump on my pelvic area and THEN asks.. "whatcha in here for?" so I say.. "to get my follies checked and my uterine lining checked" and she has this weird look on her face.. "uuuhhh we normally don't do that here, and if we do , we do the intravaginal u/s" so here I sit with my pants all rolled down and a towel stuck in them to protect them from the gump and she just STOPS... "ok have to change plans, I will leave for a sec, need you to empty your bladder and then everything from the waist down OFF. Here is a sheet to cover up with" and she is gone.. now I was totally relieved that she would let me go PEE since I had to drink 36oz of water before hand and NOT use the restroom.. but wasn't happy that I just got blobbed on the belly with the gump and now I have to get it YOU KNOW WHERE!!!! well anyway it happened, she did the u/s and it was over quickly thank goodness.. of course she couldn't tell me anything just that my doctor should call me with the results soon. And now it is Tuesday.. and I am tired so I guess I'll go get ready for bed... I hope to be back on here sooner than it took me this time..
Peace, Love and Financial Stability to ya all!!!
I'm OUT!

Hello, well I have been busy with LIFE the past few days and haven't been able to write. AF has left the bldg but she always likes to leave a small little gift for about 2 days after she is gone. So I have AF here for 3.5 days, then 1 day of nothing (really nothing), then that follows with about 2-3 days of BY (brown yuck) sorry for TMI, I just didn't think you would get the BY.. anyway.. so I am on CD5, 3rd day of Clomid 50mg and trying like hello to be optimistic. I have been eating yams like crazy.. but I am confused as the signs at the stores say "Yams and Sweet Potatoes are the same" but then I google it and it says they aren't and that in the US we mostly get Sweet Potatoes because we don't grow Yams here and we don't get shipments of them often. So again with the conflicting info out there.. I mean come on this is a freakin potatoe thingy... why all the confusion.. there are far more pressing issues than a potato thingy right? Why in the world would I need to stress out about if a Sweet Potato Yam are the same.. look at what is going on in the world today.. sheesh, I pick the craziest things to stress about.. So I have called all of the Homeopathic stores looking for Yam Flakes well WholeFoods used to carry them but no long does.. so they can special order it for me if I really want it.. hmmmm decisions decisions.. now.. I am gonna give you a homework assignment.. Why in the world would I be stressing about Yams and such? google it.. you will see. :) I am such a "Trickster" as Joshua calls it.. LOL
So this weekend was a bust.. nothing, did nothing.. grocery shopping doesn't count. I did go shopping yesterday at Kohls and The Garden Ridge.. had stuff in my cart and left with NOTHING. I had something bigger in my mind than spending money on things that I could really do with out.. I mean it wasn't anything like new undies or Milk.. it was JUST STUFF, cluttering STUFF, that I really don't need.. I mean apparently by all my posts you can clearly see that I really don't have room for STUFF right now.. I have enough on my mind and in my life .. and now that we have Yams in the mix I really have a full plate (no pun intended). The weather was beautiful this weekend and I stayed in the house most of the time watching FOOT BALL.. and no it wasn't watching with my husband and son.. I was in there alone.. I watched more foot ball the past few weekends than I have ever in my 36 years of life.. could it be the wager I have on the games or is it just that I like to watch guys in tight pants run around tackling each other and throwing a brown ball? hmmmm I'd be willing to bet it was the sweet mullah rather than the latter. Who knows ... so anyway.
I am at work now, yes in my grey walls of death.. in a much happier place than a few months ago but still at WORK.. who wants to be there???? uuuhhh anyone, Bueller? Ok so no one, including me.. but I am here.. got paid last week, got bene's, get to have social interaction with adults.. ok ok ok.. I can handle this.. it isn't the end of the world.
It is crazy when I come into the office.. I am like a little robot.. I come in, take my laptop out of my bag, plug it up to the docking station, put my purse and backpack in the drawer, unbusy my phone, log into all my screens and put them in the "Designer Fashion" on my screen, pull up my Internet Explorers on my laptop screen and TADA, the Day has begun! Now the rest of the day is not so uniform.. I have orders to work and I will get a pretty good start on them for a few hours and then BAMMMMM, either my AOADD happens or other WORK gets me distracted... so then work ends for the day and I just come in the next day and start it all over again.. I really do kinda live in that whole "Groundhog Day" movie thingy (may have mentioned this before).
Ok rambling.. gonna go.. gotta get started so I can get interupted and forget what I was doing.. laters

False Alarm!

Ok, well apparently I do NOT know how to count days or decide when AF starts.. ok so she started at 4:30pm yesterday.. not a heavy flow but just like normal.. oh crap she is here you know.. well I talk to the nurse today to get my script filled thinking that I need to start taking it tomorrow (CD3) but I guess I was wrong.. she said that you start counting CD1 when you have a good sized flow all day long.. so I guess that would be today.. so today is CD1 officially and I have my script on hand of Clomid 50mg to start taking on CD3 which will be Saturday 10/18.
So now it really all does BEGIN! Start your engines (did I spell that right?, looks weird)... anyway.. I have my little black calendar all marked up with this cycles THINGS TO DO!!!! I love doing that.. geeze what ever will I do when I finally do get preggers... I mean.. what no calendar updating.. no timed bd'g, no TWW, no POAS well unless I just want to for fun so I can see PREGNANT or two lines or a Plus sign just because I was tortured so much by getting NOT PREGNANT, one line or a MINUS sign for so long... maybe I can do that.. yeah, that is what I'll do.. oh crap.. nevermind.. the economy sucks too bad and I will need to save all my money for the baby.. oh well.. it did sound like a brilliant idea didn't it? Why yes darling.. it really did!
I like to talk to my self in the third person.. it is fun times... schweddy balls.. I love it I love it I love it.. I'M FIFTY, FIVE O, FIDDY... ok I am off my SNL kick.. sorry got side tracked..
I think my AOADD (Adult Onset Attention Deficit Disorder) has really gotten bad lately.. IDK, I'll have to ask my Person and she what she thinks.. she keeps me in line you know..
so what was I talking about.. hmmmm
OH YEAH, I remember.. so I got my meds, got my calendar updated and I am in the starting blocks ready to rock and roll. I am trying to stay positive, really I am.. I just have to keep my mind occupied and just do what it takes... Rah Rah Rah.. I have cheer myself on you know!!!
Well I am out of here.. I'll probably do more blogs to occupy (ewww another word that looks weird.. did I spell that one right?) my time... I'll catch you later taters!

My "Person"

Ok so this it totally not on the TTC train but I need a break from that crap anyway.. so anyone watch Grey's Anatomy? Well you know Christina and Meredith are each other's "Person" on that show... well I too have a "Person" ... she knows who she is so no need for names.. but I just want to talk about my "Person"
She is beautiful, very intelligent, witty, lovable and very independent. I have only known my Person for about 7 years or so.. but the friendship we have is probably deeper and better than a lot of my friendships from long ago. Don't get me wrong.. I have many many good friends that have been around most of my life.. I love each of them dearly.. But my Person knows me inside and out and helps me so much more than she thinks. Her strong will keeps me stong and helps me look out side the box on most things.
I just want to Thank you, my Person.. you are the best.. I am so glad that we met and you have let me into your life.
I hope everyone has their own Person to spend time with and lean on during hard times.. because I don't know what I would do without my Person.

Start of a New Cycle!!!

Well today around 4:30pm AF found me at work! I guess she isn't too particular where she finds you huh? Well I am optimistic about this cycle.. ok not really but trying like hello to be.. I will call my doc tomorrow to tell her the wonderful news so she can call in a script for me. And so begins the DRILL.. pick up meds, start the whole thing over again..
I am going to try and stay stong this time.. no getting down or feeling sorry for myself.. just go with the flow and see what happens in 30 days. apparently that is my cycle length, not 28 days like it has been for the past uuuhhhhh 15years or so... shoot back then I didn't even know how to count my cycle days.. the nasty things you learn while TTC. Isn't it funny, you think.. ok I am getting married to the man of my dreams and we are going to have a wonderful life with many beautiful babies and a nice house and spoiled pets.. well WTC (what the crap) happened.. I got the man, I have one very beautiful son, got the house, had the spoiled pet and miss her like crazy.. but notice I said babies.. as in more than one.. well and then you know what gets me.. and I apologize in advance if I offend anyone but I just gotta get it off my chest.. (wish it actually came off but anywho) I just grit my teeth and try to contain my self from blurting out profanities when I hear "Well we weren't really trying, it just happened" or "This is so not the time for this to happen but what can you do" > I mean we are all adults right.. we know how YOU GET PREGGO.. even though apparently it doesn't always work for all of us.. but for CRIPS sake quit having sex if you don't want babies.. it can happen.. it will happen if you don't want it for damn sure.. or so I have heard time and time again.. so anyway.. off that soap box..
So I guess to answer the question of who really won the WWF round 2 between AF and Clomid, AF, snuck in at the last moment with a sucka punch! She's pretty good at this WWF thing.. I may have to have Vinny go cut her car tires or bust her knee caps.. Where's the Soprana's when you need them..
Ok well dinner is almost done and the boys will be back soon. I hope to get back on here tonight.. no promises though..
T-Town Rocks, I am OUTTY

Common Abbreviations that I may use!

Here is a list of abbreviations that I may use while blogging about my trying to get preggers experience. Just thought this might be helpful for those that aren't up to speed on Katieisms or Trying To Conceive. If you still have questions, let me know and I'll explain.

AF – Aunt Flo (period)

BD – Baby Dance

BFN – Big Fat Negative (negative pregnancy test)

BFP – Big Fat Positive (positive pregnancy test)

O – Ovulation

OPK – Ovulation Prediction Kit

POAS - Pee on a stick (pregnancy test)

PG – Pregnancy

RE – Reproductive Endocronolgist (Fertility Specialist)

TMI – To Much Information

KWIM - Know What I Mean

There may be a few others that I use that I can't remember right now but like I said, if you have questions just let me know.
I'll try to post an actual Blog later.. I gotsta get ready for the jobby job!!!

Back again!

Ok so I didn't get back on during my calls but, to my defense I actually didn't have the call.. it isn't until tomorrow.. so there, take that!!

So, My hubby and I are currently going on our 15th month of TTC baby #2. It is driving me insane, it makes me crazy. I get my hopes up even though I continuily (is that a word) tell myself not to and then I see the BFN and get depressed and just want to stop trying all together. I have taken two rounds of Clomid 50mg and 3 rounds of Crinone 8% (progesterone booster) and still no baby to write home about. So most say it usually takes 3 cycles of Clomid well when AF shows I will be starting my 3rd round so it better happen damnit!!!
WWF between AF and Clomid
Round 1 goes to AF, dumb bitch did an illegal upper cut and knocked Clomid the hell out
Round 2 goes to AF, Clomid needs to start working out to P90X so it can kick some AF ass!!!
Round 3????? To Be Announced at a later date!
I guess we can't officially call Round 2 AF's win yet.. she hasn't showed her ugly head but I am getting emails and voice mails and snail mails from her so I know she is coming. I try to RETURN to sender and delete the vm's and have all of her em's sent to junkmail but she always seems to find me.. kinda like those Viagra emails.. you would think that the firewalls at work would realize that anything with VIAGRA on it is NOT work related material butttt nooo, ever since I took that stupid manditory Anti-Porn course at work I have been getting emails about Viagra or "GET ENLARGED AND IN CHARGE" or make your girl happy for once emails.. I mean come on.. does anyone out there REALLY read and/or click on those stupid emails links?????? Well I mean.. I know this one guy but he doesn't count.. LOL just teasing.. but I kinda wish I did know a guy that did that so I could bust his nutz for being stupid.. and laugh and point at him.. I guess I'll just have to find someone else to do that too. So anyway back to TTC... so here's the drill, now tell me how romantic this is!
CD3 through 7 take 1 50mg Clomid pill a day, CD11 or 12 go to the hospital and get an u/s to see if you have any follies (eggs) that are good size, CD12 start peeing on sticks to see when you Ovulate but can't be done in the morning.. you have to take them to work and do it during the day time for an accurate reading.. they fit nicely in your pants pockets.. No one will EVER suspect anything... ok enough of that.. so when you finally get a + OPK, you have to call the doctor's office to let them know, all the while you should be having sex with your hubby from CD10 to 18 and it is up to you to do it every night or every other night.. don't you love scheduled sex.. I mean.. there is nothing more romantic than that.. unless you consider two hippo's in a wet t-shirt contest romantic. on CD14 you start the progesterone suppositories.. yep you read that correctly, it isn't a pill you pop in your mouth or a patch you put on your butt, it is a suppository that goes in your YEN YANG... you do this until AF shows, I will spare you the gory details of the lovely things (one of their more flattering side effects).. but will tell you that one of the side effects is ENLARGMENT of the BREAST.. anyone that knows me, knows darn well that I DO NOT NEED HELP in that area... can't they make one that causes you to LOOSE some of your breast... ok just wishful thinking but still come one.. at least try to make a formula that does that... Ok so now that you all know what I go through every stinking month or have for the past 2 months.. don't you wish you were me???? any takers???? huh huh???
so anyway.. I know I know.. there are tons of women out there that have been trying for longer than me and have to do way worse things to try and acheive this daunting task... but this is about ME, JUST ME.. not them.. ME.. sorry that you gals are going through this.. and I wish nothing but the best for you .. but I am a selffish beotch, today especially, so I am just gonna whine and moan about what is happening to me..

Well it is 15mins past my bed time and I will be a GRUMPY 36 year old if I don't get my buns in bed..tata

The Beginning

This is the beginning of things that I need to say and get of my chest. I have tried using a journal that I actually manual write in but if you ever see it you would notice that there are months and even years in between the times I do write something. I started it a while ago when I was in a "Weird" place in my life. You know parents threatening to divorce, so you pack your shit and decide to move two states away with a guy you met a few months ago.. he makes you laugh and has money and likes to spend it on you.. you know that kinda thing.. but anyway.. so I started the journal then when things got really bad (you knew they would looking at the situation that I jumped into) he wasn't physically abusive but VERY controlling and I was in love with someone else so it really was just NOT the right thing to be doing at that time. I noted it quite often then and finally moved back home with my parents to finish college.. needless to say the journal was over looked for the next few years. Then I finished school got a good job, moved and started my "Adult Life" working, living with my boyfriend and paying real bills. Then bought a house and eventually got married and started trying to have a baby.. I started journalling again.. but of course that too lost steam after months of trying and no baby to write about.. started once again after we had our son and other things in our lives had changed... then again left for the birds .. well you can see my pattern.. not good with a journal.. so HERE I am.
I sit on a lot of conference calls at work so I have time to do this while pretending to listen.. it sure beats trying to remember to go home, dig in my drawer and try to write something down after all the daily chores and responsibilities that I have to do.
So now on to me.. I am a daughter, sister, wife, mom and corporate worker.. I work the normal 40hrs per week, come home cook dinner, eat with my family, spend quality time with our child, bathe him and put him down for the night, then it is time for the wife and Just Me time to kick in for the next 2 hours.. then it is sleepy time and guess what.. when I wake up it starts all over again (Ever see Ground Hog Day)!!!
Ok I will close for now, off my 1st conf call of the day and I have to actually work now.. I will be back later though.. conf calls from 12-4:30pm ewwwww!!!!